Yourself? : hello~

By the way, HAPPY HALLOWEEN everyone. *Muahahah, Evil cackle, BOooo*
Don't you think the "jack o lantern" on the front of blogger looks weird?
Let's all go Trick or Treating next year. I want to dress up as a fairy or princess or something. Alice in Wonderland perhaps?

He's a lil out of sorts?.....so am I....don't know how much I'll be able to enjoy. Sigh. Go read my other blog lar.
Quite distressed.

dunno... he seemed a lil... out of sorts.
anyway, have fun in M'sia~!

Gabriel dear...please take care of yourself =( Don't make me worry, if you still hurt, go see a doc k? You may get an MC.

Kenneth...I don't see why yechao should feel insecure. If he is then too bad...Why would you thin kthat he'd feel insecure anyway?

We'll be leaving for Malaysia in 8 hours time. Haven't even packed yet. *freaks out* Should go pack now, but got other stuff to settle.

What were those lyrics Gabriel?

Pool with Ken and Yech was really really fun!!! Wish you guys could be there too. I didn't hit many balls lar, but still had fun. *grinz* You should have seen how the two of them tried to coach me. It was so futile...
By the way. Does anyone think that pool is a very "suggestive" game? The stick, the balls, the holes...and the movement of the stick. *ahem* Yechao says that I'm too obssessed when I asked him. But it's true what! I wonder who invented pool. What do you guys/girls think? Are pool and billiards suggestive?

I got really freaked out during my toilet break during pool, when I stumbled upon a group of Ah Bengs in a corner of a dark alley leading to a pseudo toilet. The toilet wasn't there but the Ah Bengs looked ready to pounce so I turned back and ran all the way back to the pool place into the protection of yechao and ken. Call me loser but I swear that the Ah Bengs' laughter and sniggers and weird smiles are NOT a good sign for a girl alone in a dark alley. Listen to me girls. NEVER EVER go wandering alone in a dark alley. Bring along a boyfriend.

Yechao isn't henpecked! He gets his own way very often =<

My favourite disney princess is Princess Aurora =) Beautiful long blond hair, and a stunning gown that changes from pink to blue to pink to blue... Not to mention blood red lips and a lovely voice! I used to imagine that I had 12 princess sisters when I was a kid. Also I dreamt I was a princess trapped in a tower; and I'd lean against my barred windows, stare down and wish that Prince Charming would come riding by on a white horse.

All of you have fun while we're away... will miss you all. My handphone won't be in operation =( If there's any thing you badly need to talk about call my mom's phone 96303720. Now's my turn to be prey to net stalkers.

I had a feeling yechao felt insecure. Geraldine pay more attention to him!

IPW tomorrow. Sad things. Gotta remember to hand in CIP booklet for CIP hours.

Thinking of dancing in floorball... dancing between sticks and feet ahhh~~~ how wonderful.

Anyway, who here has ever dreamt of being a princess? Agagooga, you don't apply.

You'll probably see my face in the papers tomorrow... Vaguely unsettled. Don't know how badly I'll be misquoted.

Anyway had fun playing pool with yech and geraldine today. Yechao looks doomed to be henpecked :). Singing with arelly was fun though.. should do that again sometime.

Since we're on song lyrics:

Wachet auf, ruft uns die Stimme - 4/7

Zion h�rt die W�chter singen,
Das Herz tut ihr vor Freuden springen,
Sie wachet und steht eilend auf.
Ihr Freund kommt vom Himmel pr�chtig,
Von Gnaden stark, von Wahrheit m�chtig,
Ihr Licht wird hell, ihr Stern geht auf.
Nun komm, du werte Kron,
Herr Jesu, Gottes Sohn!
Hosianna!
Wir folgen all
Zum Freudensaal
Und halten mit das Abendmahl.

Floorball is fun.

RJ girls aren't that boring :)

Still aching from MY training on TUES. Ran about 1 km with boots, helmet, webbing, 3 water bottles, dummy rifle and 9 dummy loaded magazines. Was a wonder I could even move. Hyperventilated at end. Lucky I was off the next day so I got to sleep at home.

My left foot, left lower back and shoulders still hurt.

Someone commented during floorball that you couldn't really tell the girls from the guys. The girls are equally physical.

Well.. I wanted to marry after JC too.. but I'm in RJC! haha... that does reduce my desire to get married at 18. There's probably a whole world of more interesting women out there.

Ehz...that sounds like this humungous spotlight that my next BLOCK neighbour likes to turn on at MIDNIGHT, to shine right into my bedroom. Weirdos!
I'm usually woken by the twittering/screeching of magpies at my window. I swear they are the exact same magpies that have been waking me up for 17 years of my life already. Do they live that long?

There are girls who want kids...but not in RJ I guess =) Haven't you guys heard the joke? RJ girls and guys seem to have changed sex with each other. The guys are more effeminate and the girls more boisterous.
And Japan or Taiwan girls only do that in DRAMA SERIALS. How much TV have you been watching???

Marry by 21...better than yechao...he wants to marry right after A levels. I don't know what to think.

Well.. I was woken up by this really beautiful orange light comming from my window.7:59 I think. Then I started singing the hotties song haha... and woke up totally. Wanted to change the lyrics though. Felt some stanza didn't really fit. But in between humming, copying and pasting, I forgot the modifications. Bahz.

Haha... emotional blackmail only works on guys. I'd ask for your methods if I were a girl... but girls are little complex pieces of toufu. Especially Singaporean ones of course...(or at least the RG ones). Soft shelled crabs without the shell(something I read today). Sighz... just wish I was born in Taiwan or Japan, where the girls will go pine and worry away from you, and hide all that worrying when they meet you and smile sweetly. Ahhh....
:)

Its nice to meet a girl that ACTUALLY wants to have kids though. :) Some just don't like little kids. Others want their career. I wanna marry someone by 21 yrs. That's my goal lar.

Good Morning! *yawn...*
I'm still blurry eyed. Just woke up. Can't imagine how you guys can wake up so early if there's no school..(talking abt kenneth).

Woke up to find that there's nothing to eat for breakfast! *whine* and I'm home alone as usual. *whine even more* Yechao will only be over around noon. How's my stomach going to survive till then? Usually I don't have to eat much, but I have no idea why I woke up this morning with an appetite.
I also woke up, turned on the radio, and the first song was IN THE END IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER!!!
NOT a very good song to start the morning.

It's a very good tactic to stand between wishy-washy and straightforwardness. With a little more experience, it's even possible to use emotional blackmail to get the girl/guy you want. But I won't teach you pure innocent ones that sorta thing =)

*scratch head* can't imagine how I can't remember who's goh lee kian. There's a new PE teacher called Kenneth Tan? HAHAHA. Kenneth! Did you hear that! You share the same name as a poseur teacher! Hahaha.

I don't hate st nick but I really don't like it. Have very few friends from there, and the girl I hate more than anyone comes from that school. Somehow they churn out a lot of mugger bitches. But that's a stereotype. I know some very nice peeps from there too. Few though, and they don't like the teachers there much.
I quit from the st nicks jap class because it felt weird being the only rgs girl there, and doing extremely badly for my tests too.So Malu. Might as well drop. Made a mistake anyway. Should have done French.

I'm still in choir. Been in choir since PRIMARY FOUR. Such a sad pathetic life I lead. Joined drama classes OUT of the school 'coz the school ELDDS clashed with choir. And then wanted to join photog at some points of time but then again changed my mind because of time constraints. Also wanted to join art club, but couldn't because EVERYTHING CLASHED. Irritating.

People in single sex schools are either stunted socially or overly outgoing (meaning slutty, flirting with everyone kinda thing) It's so sad right? One more educational system thing to pick at.

Gabriel and I are used to bickering to each other. Life would be extremely monotonous otherwise.
We're like bro and sis! Aren't we dear??? *CUDDLES*!!! ( haha, that ought to scare him. See? I'm so nice!)

The hotties lyrics won't come out... because of the chinese words prog missing.
BUT I have the MP3s! They're available online and on KAZAA ;) Lots of people were downloading from me the day after the concert. Scary.

wow. i'd be one of those wishy-washy ones.
but whats wrong with that? it saves embarrassment, as far as i can see.
hah. but i do find it quite... amazing, admirable even, that people can be so straightforward and -confident-.
id miss a lot.

goh lee kian. pe head. pretty old, i believe.
cant belive shes pe head!!
shes become more feminine and more -overbearing- to us since Kenneth Tan [loser/ poseur pe teacher who thinks hes -so- cool] came in. pbbth.
trackers train(ed) on 246, so i suppose they must have had thirdlang on 135. but now that has to go- everything will definitely clash, and no chance of changing.
dyou like st nicks? you dont sound like you do...
YES. lots of ccas clash. -very pointedly-
orchard lunch? were somewhere stuck in bishan, i believe.
oh, no, the jumpers and throwers are stuck in school with sucky equipment.
hah! i plan to bring the jumpers to train with the runners. there are a lot of benefits to that.
screw the bureaucracy. screw gohleekian. poor throwers.
we'll have little sec1 mites scuttling around the track-- five houses worth. plus some sec twos plus some sec threes plus practically the whole lot of track sec4s (03) since almost all of us have some position or another.
not that its not -fun- to bully 'em...

say her name out loud then.
not that it makes a whole lotta difference.
cca? what cca?? still choir or not?

perhaps i shall cast off all my [whatsthatword] constraintsconformitiesrestraints bahbahbah
when i get to jc. i dont think i can survive any other way, and i cant afford to take two years to settle in (as i did in sec school. yes.)
hm. i wonder if i can. i'm kindof stuck.
i think its a single sex school thing. stunted socially!!
then again thats a really general generalisation.
perhaps some people 'rebound'?

yes. maintain the pristine state of our little blog.
be nice!!~
(coming from me...)

oh yes. we had an interclass floorball match too.

aargh. still aching from training on TUES.
did frog jumps (killed my quads) then ran 4k. since i couldnt use my quads i killed everything else-- aching!!!
bah.

siigh! our class sucks at floorball!!
queen of the valley. whatever...
we were spares every alternate game. we lost almost every scissorspaperstone.

if our dreams tell us weird stuff about ourselves of course we 'deny' it. cos it is actually connected very intimately with us, although unconcious.
not very coherent this morning.

oh dear. another crush? hahahahahaha......
ok! sorry. hah. its bad (i postulate) to start liking someone based on looks and then wanting to get to know that whoever better-- starts off superficial, not likely to get any deeper cos looks are the main attraction... so its a doomed relationship.
haah. but not all the time, i hope.
nevermind. not entirely connected to your case.

post first.

跟你说 - The hotties!

漂亮你真漂亮
我好想跟你讲
你真美丽你真美丽
我不能忘记你我一直想着你

Chorus:
我好想跟你说
我好想跟你说我爱你

今天月亮真圆星星满天
浪漫的晴天
上次想跟你表示
但是没胆子向你说那三个字

爱人是痛苦被爱是幸福
我为你受苦爱情是盲目
我把我写的情书藏在我心底
我想鼓起勇气说我爱你

blahz don't bring your bickering here. Its almost constant! Go sit down one day and argue over coffee or something. Or drink something a little easier to clean off.

Visual mind? Males are supposed to be better spatially than females.

And being in a single sex school does make one deprived. As we can see by looking at a certain screwed up individual *furrows brows*

Haha I haven't even said her name out loud once. Peiying or peiyong I think. Its peiying.

hehz.

You could lend me the book you don't like. I find the art interesting... the angles they choose are always useful in photography. I think photography is something that... trains my visual mind. Haha... feel more female already.

Hmmz about you and yechao, you're in the same CCA dear. You KNOW each other. Yechao said hi. You didn't. You're evil. :)

I got in... Northeast Community Development Council. Should be interesting. There's an Ng Li Qin going for the same thing. Don't know her. 1A01E. I thought I told you?

Nahz I don't think its a single sex school thing. Its just that I'm hesitant talking to people I barely know. Its just so freaky.

Kenneth!!! Not all nice people are attached you noe... there are alot of reasons why.
1) Maybe she likes someone who doesn't like her/ know
2) Parental objections (if she's the guai sort)
3) Too stressed with school already
4) Don't want one
5) Lesbian (BUT I DOUBT...)

EVERYONE'S reading sandman. Yechao, JiaMin, Vivienne...arghhh...so I actually bought a book. But then I don't really like the kind of art. American comics just don't appeal to me as compared to Japanese ones. However the plot IS intriguing. Was reading a novel version(during break) that JiaMin picked up from somewhere. Must find it.

By the way, you're not Catholic right Kenneth? Because I've asked my priest that question before. He says that we should still be sorry for our thoughts/dreams, thought they can't be controlled. However, if we're sorry then it's enough, or something like that. And don't obssess over it. Though I have to admit that everyone obsesses over some sinful stuff at one point of time or other, sex/suicide/murder...

Why a squash player? Why don't you just tell us who she is? I'm dreadfully curious.
I think that what you're feeling is probably a mixture of lust and because she's nice. Also it depends on whether or not she's physically attractive. However I know that SOMEONE here has an ugly girl fettish and a fettish for odd looking people like that HORRENDOUS HERMAPHRODITE BELOW called Asian Prince!
Anyway, back to the point. I think you should just get to know her better first Kenneth... and we all can't help being selfish sometimes, don't feel too bad about it. But I DO wish that RJ people would stop being so wishy-washy and just take action. Goodness! The number of friends that complain to me everyday that they don't know what to do about their secret crushes! Tsk tsk. Very unhealthy. Does this come from being in a single-sex school for too long? I seem to be immune from that symptom, coming across as too straightforward sometimes. Oh well, better than brooding. How did you think I got attached to yechao in the first place?

I got a feeling that my class didn't even show up for the floorball match. Afterall they ponned ALL the classes...AO3C was absent right?

And just so you keep meeting someone doesn't mean you're fated...I saw you at macs during lunch =< But I didn't say hi. Muahahaha.

Bao En, who's gohleekian? Is she new? Can't remember a teacher by that name. And most people used to take 3rd lang on 135 anyway. Choir used to class with my jap class, so I switched to a class full of St Nicks girls only, making me drop in the end.
Housepracs on saturday? How sucky! I'm sure the absentee rate is very high then... won't lots of CCAs clash? Going to school 6 days a week isn't fun. But I guess houseprac on sat would mean Orchard lunch every sat too.

Gabriel, which is the tree with weird insects?!?! I'm never going near that place again!!! And what's that about a prostrate gland?

Now that I'm done with the replies, I'd just like to say that JiaMin felt very disturbed after reading this blog. I don't blame her ;)

By the way Kenneth, how was your internship interview? Apparently yechao says the people are gonna pay you all!!!! Argh! Unfair! I should have just written the essay and all...sigh. I wish I had, not for the money, but for my ego. Oh heck. Regrets.

Anyway, I'll go and say hi to the squashie(er) next time. She taught me some squash at the clinic... and she's REALLY nice! Unattached though, I wonder why.

Reading Sandman by Neil Gaiman... troubled by the fact that I was reading a book about a character who's dreaming. So tonight if I dream about the fictional character, who's dreaming, would it be a dream in a dream? Of Neil Gaiman's dream? Would we be sharing the same dreams?

And then I felt sad, cos it seemed that we call dreams dreams because we were not responsible for them. We keep saying that they're uncontrolled, unconscious parts of us. That's just because we're afraid to take responsibility for our dreams, just as we're afraid to take responsibilities for our thoughts. *pause*. I was thinking about wet dreams, and other dreams with a physical manifestation. If our minds think it, does it make it real? Don't we then have to take responsibility for it? Does it matter if we can control it or not? If we say dreams are uncontrollable, can we then not take responsibility for dreaming? Or perhaps we unconsciously decide to not control our dreams, or we don't know how to control our dreams, just as we sometimes don't know how to control our thoughts. Just a thought.

I like the squash player irrationally. I don't know why. The reason I shy from approaching her is probably because I don't exactly know where the source of the attraction comes from. Am I just lusting because she's pretty and nice? Or do I wanna noe her as a person because she's interesting? And if I don't know her at all, how can I better know her as a person? Won't I just be motivated by lust? And why would she need another lustful person in her life? Isn't that all just too selfish?

haha I keep seeing the squash player around. Ahhh we're fated. :) Dunno larh. Anyway, Yuting said hi to me today. Feel good. Cos I knew her like for 3 hrs in the movie screening thingies?

Didn't get to play floorball for interclass today, but had a really great game during PE. We were beaten only on our first game. Then we played so long unbeaten that we decided to rest with our opponents. Amazing. My partnership with Asrie's great. We were both forwards, and I'm like always grabbing the loose balls and feeding them to him, and he'll score. Quite beautiful. Both of us kicked out so many other teams.

[On why I don't want her to join "Yourself?"] You're just afraid I'll tell everyone about your gay tendencies - Screwed Up Girl

See? I'm not the only one to think her screwed up.

Me? Perverse? I shall freak everyone out forthwith then.

I suppose I should intro myself too.

I'm the one and only Asian Prince - Wo-hen Nankan. Visit my page here.

Raffles Guys are still to be seen at RI? Throw a discus at whoever ogles for too long. Gehe.

whoa! i wont really bother with the replies...
hello 'geri', as kel/ anne calls you.
you have an interesting [read: somewhat screwed up] life, indeed.
i HATE blood tests tooo!! aargh. i hate the feeling/ thought of blood being sucked out...
ah. and kenneth, y'welcome. dont get too pissed at that teacher! forget it. 0:)
your phototaking (or not) encounters are -freaky-.
both of you [gabriel] are perverse and... ah, whatever.
but nevertheless very amusing.
kenneth how long did you stay at the busstop!!
you worry me.
hah! debate sucked. we won but only cos the other class found out on the morning itself.
i cracked-- too nervous, really really jerky. what happened to all my composure and fluency??
i have a theory- i can use my brains and i can talk, unfortunately not at the same time.
hm.

ah. briefly intro...
rgssec3. bao en. TRACK. :D
yeah~
training days are changing! gohleekian screws up our minimally-working lives even more.
sat house pracs and a 5 day cycle, staying back an extra block on some days...
arent we fine now?? and why do we need more time?? out of OUR TIME. arent we all screwed up enough??
track training is screwed. RI states that we can only train on monwedfri now. solves the house prac problem, BUT
now third lang is ONLY on those days (135) ie no more thirdlang trackers.
ie no more sec1s, since most take thirdlang and wont sacrifice that for track.
screw gohleekian (her brainchild, the housepracs and thirdlang days) and ri. gen1 wo3 men2 you3 chou2 issit...
nevermind. i feel lazy. i like reading what you people write.

Well well. When the cat is away, the mice play. I sense a disturbance in the ether, as if a gazillion souls were crying out in untold agony.

I see that Screwed Up Girl has arrived. Ahh, I rue the day when I informed her of the existence of this haven. Now what corner of the (un)known planes of existence is left where can I go to seek solace from the Screwed-Up-ness that is her?

Quoth I:
- "[On the lady on her lamp] I called her Alice"
- "I like being screwed up... It's nice leading such a screwed up life. It's very interesting and fun."
- "[On acting kiddy] Just because I'm screwed up doesn't mean I'm stuck at the mental age of a 10 year old"
- "[On David] Everytime he sees me he runs away screaming... Is it because I'm too screwed up?"
- "At the sound of "blood test" I went shrieking down the passageway out of the testing room and sulked in a corner, refusing to come out until they promised me that they wouldn't make me take the test. " [Ed: Sounds like what I did when I saw Act Cute 2 and her retinue once]

--- Screwed Up Girl

"xxx (ICQ#)Wrote:
But yechao's damn happy 'coz he keeps trying to persuade me to exercise and not be afraid of giving birth...

*keels over*"

Our little coven is lively.

Downhere, your chem teacher can, with a lazy wave of her bejewelled hand, cast a white slip into your folio, you know? And I thought she was experienced in the extreme. I don't see why you dislike her so much, though. I'm led to believe she's amiable. Maybe tis your class.

93.3! 93.3! Will I never be rid of the nuisance? How does their silly jingle go again? "Mei3 shi2 mei3 ke4 you3 yi4 tian1. Jiu3 san1 san1, zui4 sin1 ping2 dao4".

Quoth I: "One very irritating thing about 93.3 FM is its compulsive, morbid repeating of its jingle. What makes it even more irritating is that they've recorded at least 5 variations on the jingle, from one of a man crooning the jingle slowly and sultrily to Chang Huimei / Zhang Huimei / A*Mei (whatever) belting it out, to an acapella version with harmony. All of them make me even more pissed off than Muzak or elevator music, but I think the worst version is one where some girl sings it in an "Act Cute" voice, and then giggles at the end. !@#$%^&*()"

Hmm. Weren't we supposed to get to see the photos of the models that you took, Kenneth? "Its all pictures of RJ trees and shrubs and flowers anyway... Gabriel won't be interested." - Gah. You should take the tree in the "Bamboo" Garden which crawls with weird insects at a set time yearly.

I took 2 blue slips in 2 years in RJ - one for a dental appointment and another for a real sickness. For which I filled in both lines and wrote "stomach cramps" in addition to my other ailments :)

My fondness for various scents goes in cycles. At one point I really detested Tea Tree, and at another, geranium. Hmm. Don't all chinese medicines stink?

Gerri/jerry? I've been telling you to go to a gyne for so long, but nooooooo...

Blood tests aren't painless. My veins are hard to see. You want me to draw your blood? I can use the Yakult Straw. Muahaha.

Finger up yer arse? Ooh. Kinky. Too bad you don't have a prostrate gland, I hear that makes it doubly interesting. *Keeps mum when he can be a lot more mean*

Sandman? Argh.

"But not that desp to go up to someone and ask for her photo or something" - I've a friend who used to go up to girls and ask for their phone numbers. He claims to have been rejected 2/32 times only.

"The last time I raised a camera to my eye in Japan (some junior high school) I had like 4-5 girls running in to fill the frame." *Sputters*. And we wonder about the perverse zeitgeist that pervades the country. And their weird ideas about schoolgirls.

"Really beautiful.. and she was looking at me. Ahhh.... " - Erm. Yes, voyeurism is bad. I fear for what your tendencies augur, kenneth.

Isn't male manga also repackaged? I wouldn't know. I have chosen to give the world of J-culture a wide berth :) I alone, among the teeming hordes, am unsullied. I shall not dissert further on the unhealthful effects of indulging in overly high doses of manga/anime/green haired japanese. so there.

Male-reproductive-system-specific doctors are called urologists. But anyway the male reproductive system is less complex, and easier to get to besides, than the female one.

"kelly and i, anne are on this blog from rgs choir" - Something wrong with the grammar. Oh, but I resolved not to be so pedantic sometime ago. No matter, it's time for my medicine now :)

Kenneth, you sauntered down to Raffles Guys School? And to play Table Tennis too? Aiyah, I would have come. Fun. I'm beginning to forget the smell of unwashed and un-deodourised female bodies, to categorise in my olfactory library. Oh and I could make critical appraisals of the new purple pinafores.

It's a pink house, dammit! You never see anyone there. I postulate it belongs to RJC, as a landmark to mark the bus stop you get off at. I saw a property agent there in Jan 2001, cos they're moving in a few years.

The "guys thinking about sex every six seconds" is an unfortunate urban legend perpetuated by the nefarious female lobby. Though I must admit, with some consternation, that my gender is partial to and weak when faced with the pleasures of the flesh.

Anyone was conned into joining Downhere for his little beach rendezvous? Hehe. I don't mind going for his wine party, though, though I might not be the type of company he desires ;) Oh wait, I'm a teetotaller. Damn.

Kamal would fit more in an Indian flick. Is he Bugis, or something? Not of Malay blood, I think. He's damn funny though ;) Quotes available, naturally.

What's The Others? Solitude has its advantages.

Last bastion of british-imperialism? Bah. Beats the last vestige of Chinese communism in a foreign land :) Have they finished the Great Leap Forward yet?

Hmm. Someone who has a scent claims she doesn't use scent-ish stuff. No matter. Some people have pungent hand cream :)

Wow. I got to the end of the morass.

This morning, something really amusing happened to me. Was rather sleepless last night, worrying over chem tutorial today, and whether to attend or not, cos I got into a tiff with her the week before promos (she threw my paper on the ground when I asked her a chem question, and remarked that the model answer sucked at explaining (which was what the question was about)). She took offence, and I took offence. Anyway, I kinda resolved to not attend her classes until she explained her actions, what did I do that caused the reaction, if not then an apology, and an assurance it'll not happen again. I haven't really posed an ultimatum. But I'm going to somewhere this week. Haven't found time to buy paper to write a letter, thinking of attaching it to a worksheet. But anyway, I cut her class last thurs, and was contemplating cutting today, to show a clear signal that I'm really pissed. (I wrote her a letter before that saying I'm really pissed and I want an explanation.) She hasn't replied.

Anyway, just as I was getting totally mad thinking about it in the car, and resolving to walk out after CT period, the radio DJ read out my horoscope in chinese. Something about Mu Yang Zuo, Avoiding conflict, and bearing in mind that a relationship destroyed is hard to rebuild. (can't remember the exact words in chinese. 93.3) And it was really coincidental and stuff, cos I don't listen to 93.3 in the car? and I specially tuned into 93.3 cos I wanted some happy chinese music.

Anyway I kinda froze, and let the radio decide for me. Went for her class, and she totally ignored me. Hmph. But I do see that she tries hard to teach. And she's sometimes irritated by noise. Suppose I've got to chalk it down to inexperience.

Anyway I'm still keen on my explanation. And I'm seriously considering asking for a class transfer, or a tutor change. Its hard enough to recover from a B E O O without worrying about teacher problems and sleepless nights, and I don't want a cranky to spoil my mood for the A levels dammit.

Oh what adds fuel to the fire is that she refused to add 0.2 marks to my friend so that she can get an A. And she made a scene in the office, cos another chem teacher gave her the A after she failed to get it from her. I don't think she's a very good teacher at all. I mean teachers are supposed to care for her students. And she made the other teacher feel bad. (which happens to be one of the many dedicated chem teachers in the RJ chem department.)

Blehz. I feel evil.

Oh I'm seeing Hodge tomorrow possibly at some photog thingy. Maybe I'll talk to him about it. A class transfer that is. I think he should be aware that one of his teachers is like that. Of course, he can't do anything about it cos its a govt school. Probably talk to her and find out what's wrong. Part of the reason why I don't wanna go make an appointment with Hodge is the fact that she's working for her living. I don't wanna smash any ricebowls, especially when she does try her best to teach in class. Its just that she has to lose some pride, understand her students more, control her temper, and overall be a nicer person. Its also because of that that I don't wanna talk to her face to face, besides the fact that I may get irritated and scream in her face (which I don't want), and that she may get irritated and scream in MY face (which happened the last time). I don't think it helps. The best way I feel is through a nice letter, something that you can read over a cup of tea and tear up. Of course, a duplicate will probably fly over to Hodge's office whether she finishes reading it or not.

My head tells me I should give her another chance. I believe EVERYONE deserves another chance to correct their mistakes. But my feelings tell me that I really DON'T want her to teach me J2 chem.

haha interesting read. Guys don't have such... interesting... experiences. The most exciting doctor in my life is probably the dentist. "You have 2 CAVITIES."
my photos are up... 2 of them... Link!

If you haven't realized, you don't need cramps for blue slips. You just need a sympathetic teacher. Or a good reason.

Mmmmz... evening primrose oil is good... I used to be addicted to it. Got over it somewhat. It gives me a nice buzz, and soothes my temperament. I have this affinity with flowers larh. Sort of. My chinese medicines, if I go look for one, usually consists of 4 or 5 kinds of flowers... and some other assorteds. I'm not sure people here are interested in the reason, so I shan't say it.
Enjoy the pictures! More comming later. If you want a full res one as a desktop image or something, I can e-mail it to you.

WHAT?! There's no choir on friday?! Oh no...better warn them then. What a terrible coincidence. But keep it a secret from the rest though ;) Afterall, we may not turn up at all anymore. Sigh.

And erm. Yeah. Ofcourse I know Jeremiah. The guy who goes around calling me yechao because he doesn't want another gerri/jerry around the place. EVERYWHERE! Suddenly along the corridors "Yeeeechaaaaaaooooo" Worse than Peeves the Poltergeist from Hogwarts. So malu I tell you! And he would wave his finger infront of me while he says that too. Sometimes his friends have to bodily restraint him from harrassing me. Ugh!

I know what's panadol cold...I've been taking it at a practically daily basis.
Arielly used to be my old nick... Somehow the school comp works fine for me =) I guess it likes girls better.

Oh yeah, and gabriel calls me screwed up only because he refuses to admit that he's the screwed up one. But I won't use this blog for bickering...

Had a rather, distressing, amusing, confusing, painful, boring gynae encounter today. My first encounter with a gynae after the age of 1. Infact, she's the very same gynae who brought me out of the womb. And you know something freaky? she looks familiar... But maybe it's only because her snowy white hair and kind face reminded me of Cinderella's fairy godmother.
But more about the appointment.
Since it was the oh so famous WK Tan who's my gynae, we had to wait for 4 hours. FOUR HOURS!!! together with hoards of pregnant women in line...and I felt so bad at first. I mean, I'm just this girl who's looking for some primrose oil or something to relieve menstrual cramps; yet I'm hindering these row upon row of women with bulging tummies or baby carriages. But somehow they all seemed too used to waiting already. Apparently that's what they do all day, once a week. Just wait outside WK Tan's clinic.
I felt terribly uncomfortable because I don't take a very found liking towards babies, and I'm absolutely terrified of ever getting pregnant.
Also, I'm terrified of blood.
And the made me do a blood test.
At the sound of "blood test" I went shrieking down the passageway out of the testing room and sulked in a corner, refusing to come out until they promised me that they wouldn't make me take the test.
But then, after 3 hours of waiting, my impatience finally got the better of me and I felt like doing something self-destructive, so I agreed to the blood-test. I hate to admit that it was practically painless and I felt like such a doofus for humiliating myself in public.
After that, it was the "water drinking wait".
I had to drink about 3 cups of water, just so as to fill my bladder or else the scanner/x-ray won't work. So fine. I drank and drank till I needed to pee. Then the nurse tells me. "The doctor will be here soon. Please don't go to the toilet, we need you bladder to be full".......so I wait....
and wait....
and wait....
half an hour and still waiting...
Till I couldn't stand it anymore and rushed to the toilet.
Only to find out that the doctor wouldn't be ready in another 2 hours or so *bangs head onto wall*
So I had to repeat the process all over again...and again...
It's a wonderful way of preventing people from getting kidney failure you know? All that drinking of water...
The bad thing is that there were dirty black specks in the water =(.......uh oh.....

The wait was terrible. All the mushy couples goo-goo-ga-ga ing over babies still in their mommie's tummies and all. And then I was so afraid of stetching my legs out in fear that some pregnant woman may trip over them... During the entire wait I managed to finish one whole manga book. Yay. And yechao helped by telling corny jokes like "Is the doc female or a guynae?"....and "ni3 pa4 huai2 yun4 mah? huai2 yun4 you3 she3 me4 hao3 pa4".....

The scan was very interesting... they rub this cooling liquid over you, and then scan. It's exactly the thing they use for letting you see an unborn child in the womb. Then after that they found out what was the problem. My uterus is too far back and a bit to the left, and also too tight.
The implications are terrible. Not only will I have cramps till the day I give birth. (I DON'T WANNA GIVE BIRTH!!!!!) If I ever do give birth I'll prob have to have a caesarean. ARGH!!! WHY ME!!! And also, I'm supposed to exercise more. I hate exercise. But yechao's damn happy 'coz he keeps trying to persuade me to exercise and not be afraid of giving birth...
The entire checkup was horrible though. They stuck a finger up my arse!!!!!! *WAIL* Though she was gentle it still feels weird! Made me feel like shitting!
Next time girls, be prepared for blood tests and finger stickings before you visit a gynae.

But atleast I got the pills to stop the pain.
And the scans are damn cool. Have them with me =)
And cramps are good excuses for the infamous blue slips ;)

hi geri!

WHAT the seniors are coming back friday?! but we just told the choir there was no practice!!

you can visit shuki, chee, grace, joan, caroline, nichole, adeline and me in the co room though! we'll be there (happy!) yesyes come back. oh no... hmm. shall i tell them? or you want it secret? :)

will come back after chi o's. :)

I'm not stalking you, I'm wandering around the corridors out of boredom dear. Two teachers decided to let us off early. One didn't turn up. One taught, but finished everything she needed to this year.

Borrowed Sandman. Yay!

My slides came back... they LOOK GOOD! I'm gonna start scanning. Its all pictures of RJ trees and shrubs and flowers anyway... Gabriel won't be interested. And I'm sure the plants and flowers don't feel violated. Pretty things are there to be looked at!

Hey Yujing! haha glad to know you're comming back soon~ but isn't 5 weeks a lil' too far away? The digicam idea sounds interesting, but I did calculations a while ago and it seems using my uncle's old (its as old as me) camera will be cheaper in the short run. I have flirty interests anyway. Mmmz... if only I could find enough models for that openings thing. I'd call it orifices. Saw some ballet publications the other day at the esplanade (have you been there?) that had these really nice set of black and white photographs playing with light and texture over the human body? It was rather challenging to identify which parts of the body were in the pictures. I only identified like a few. Really really beautiful curves and textures. There's this World Press photo competition exhibition in Singapore... ends 30 november I think ... you'll miss it. The images are really nice. Really good. You want me to cover it for you? Maybe I'll buy the catalogue and give it to you if you're interested.

Well... arielly, (can i call you that? Geraldine's so long. and Gerry reminds me of jeremire(sp?) chew heng hwang. I'm sure you're familiar with him. Well... I suppose there are alot of photographers and kinds of photographers in this world, just like there are artists and jerks. For me... I'm just starting out, so I may be not very tactful or something. But this is my blog hey~ or at least OUR blog :) I'm free to say what I like. Haha... I'm quite desp really. But not that desp to go up to someone and ask for her photo or something. That's rather harassing.

Was actually contemplating asking the Jap girl for a photo, cos jap people are photo crazy anyway. They invented neoprints remember, but then I thought about Singaporean girls... haha and wondered what a Singaporean girl would do if I asked to take a photo of her. She'd think exactly like the way you're thinking now. I'm sure the jap girl wouldn't think the same way. The last time I raised a camera to my eye in Japan (some junior high school) I had like 4-5 girls running in to fill the frame. I'll post that photo sometime. Its just a difference in perception perhaps. A difference in values, or just that certain girls in Singapore are so shy and ... possessive of their image.

No she couldn't have sued me cos that was public property. All photos taken while standing on public property is fair game. Of course, my condo might not be public property, then its private property that I partly own, and there's nothing preventing me taking pictures of people from my own private property. If you remember the case of the terrace house spat sometime back in the news, it wasn't illegal or anything to take photos of your neighbours from your own property, as long as you aren't outraging their modesty. I did my research on photographic laws awhile back cos I was contemplating street shooting. that's just coverage of life in Singapore. Images that will dissapear when Singapore changes. I'm sure I want some pictures of people doing all sorts of things, because that's just life, and I'm recording it in whatever way I can. Sometimes, when I take the picture, I wonder what people in the future will think of it, they'd probably laugh at the amount of area covered by our modern swimsuits, just as we laughed at the ornate headgear of women in china.

Anyway I was taking it from the privacy of my house. She would never know.

I used to read female manga. but only managed one before I got totally sick of it. Its the same thing all over and over again. Repackaged. I mean... what's the really big difference between MVP qing ren and Meteor Garden? The only really striking difference (besides the different names) is that Meteor Garden has much better acting. I can't even call the people in MVP qing ren actors. at least not the young uns.

Oh yeah... I'm bored as well... logging in at 2:10pm.

Hmmz... Gynae's probably do have cold medicine. Cold medicine's just antihistamines anyway(prevents immune system reactions, like sneezing, but doesn't kill viruses). If not you could just get Panadol Cold or something, clarinase is VERY good. I don't think there's a penis doctor. I think the organ is more reliable anyway. or at least, there's less stress put on it. Childbearing is a very large part of almost all womens' lives. We just visit sex therapists for viagra or something.

Haha... that's all the replies. Now I'll start~ :)

bahz this message is 3 hours late. School comp won't post. How do you get your posts up anyway Arielly?

yes this is the barely present judith. hi geraldine, you must be the one gabriel calls... well, you'd know.

Hello Kelly! Hello Anne! Yeah, remember you all lar ;) Hasn't been THAT long...

Anyway, I think some people hate me, or dislike me, or whatever... Or maybe I'm just paranoid but sometimes it's quite pissing when people start disagreeing with your every move out of the blue...and you think. Gosh, is there something wrong with me, you, or the world?

Nevermind if you didn't understand the above para. Just felt like rambling. Got absolutely zilch to do right now. No homework ( NOONE in their right mind would start on holiday homework now) No IPW. (We've sort of finished) No classes (Chinese class for them. Nothing for me. muahahaha) So I'm just stoning in the comp lab waiting for yechao to finish lessons. Then it's a good lunch before I go to the gynae to find out if there's anything wrong with me and my blood clots. If I am destined to die by tomorrow, so long folks! Adios Amigos!

I can't imagine that I didn't have ANY lessons at all today. geog was transfered to be IPW. And then I ponned maths lec. The only lesson was econs. But nobody ever listens to Helen Tan anyway. She's teaching us again next year. *groanz* And my mom's getting my horrible pregnant aunt, who keeps pointing out I'm fat and pimply (when I know I'm not, but it doesn't help to boost morale), to tutor me ECONS!!!! WTH!!! Can't yechao do it instead! Almost cried with anger and indignation in the car. My aunt doesn't know a shit about anything anyway so why on earth am I going to her? I'd prob stress her so much and do harm to the little life inside her.

P.S: Can you imagine that yechao wasn't very sure what a gynae's job is? He thought she could give me medicine for my cold as well. Weirdo. I guess there's no male equivalent of a gynae? So I asked him whether a p***s doctor could give him cold medicine. If there even is one in the first place.

welcome geraldine! kelly and i, anne are on this blog from rgs choir.. i used to be a sop1 with you in 2001.

'And saw this really really cute girl sunbathing at the swimming pool just. Rushed upstairs to get a zoom lens for some voyeurism but she stood up when i finally focused on her. Blahz'- Hahaha, get a digicam mate. I just saw one of the photography girls taking or trying to take a close-up photo of her friend's ear when I was walking to the computer room, haha, they kept cracking up every 5 seconds, it's ridiculous. Oh, it reminded me of a series of photos I saw at some exhibition under the theme of 'openings'. It was pretty sick as the photographer choose to take openings of the human body. Haha, I think I'm making Ariella's impression of photoraphers even worst! Oops! Haha but nah, not all photographers are desperate. It's just that photos that shock tend to leave a more lasting impression than photos that are just visually appealing so yeah. Have to go now. Bell just rang for roll-call. Seeya people! Oh, Kenneth! I'll be home in 5 weeks!! Yipee yay yay yay!! See you then~!! =)

Harlowz everyone!!! So this is Geraldine. The girl who adds lots of !!! and CAPITALS and also ***** to add to the starry*starry*night!!!
Nice starting hm? I'm so glad that Gabriel's in camp right now so I can just settle in nicely and peacefully without any violent objections, till the time he comes back and kicks me out...

By the way Kenneth, thank you for letting me into ze blog, but I hate to make my first comment this :
You make my impression of photographers very,very bad...

Seriously, after one of my ex bfs who was a half perverted photographer, now your numerous citings of personal voyeurism are putting ideas into my head that perhaps...just perhaps..all photographers are desperate in some way or other. That may seem a rather sweeping statement but you can see it as a compliment as well =) Male vibes and all.

For me, there is nothing very interesting about going back to RGS (I actually mistook the beloww entry to be that of a fellow RGS batchmate, alas I am wrong). I'm going back on Friday to visit a choir who probably wouldn't be very grateful to see us? *hint hint* I know one of my juniors is on this blog =) Keep it a secret that the seniors are coming back on friday yar? It's Adela's birthday.

And Kenneth, there is actually an easier route to getting to rgs...you only need to take ONE bus from some OTHER bus stop in ghim moh. Ask an RGS girl more aware of the route. (not me, my sense of direction sux)

Personally, I find squirrels adorable, 2 squirrels chasing each other sounds suggestive...
3 snails?? I saw 2 today while walking back from ghim moh macs. One was squished, squashed, whatever; and had ants eating it's poor dead decaying splattered carcass. The other was crawling very close...some classmate suggested it was the partner. Aw...
Crows don't sing, they squawk. I. Hate. Crows.
Flowers are pretty. Like me *ego*

You should stop imagine pretty girls looking at you...it's very bad for your health. Next time I dare you to go up to talk to them.

And you really should ask people to pose for you instead of just taking them half-naked in swimsuits...no wonder she stood up. She could have sued you if you took the photo...

By the way. Just wondering. Does anyone on this blog read manga? I've recently started on this manga craze...very unlike me; can barely decipher the words but the pretty pretty pictures just makes all my friends and I go goo-goo-ga-ga.

Can everyone briefly intro please? =)

Happy today~ ahh~!

Thanks a million Bao En! I'll have work to do this week. This week looks rather horrible, Tuesday(tutorials day) has lessons, no idea what the teachers wanna teach, Wednesday's a really short day, I think I'll call a few friends for games or somethign after school... or I could go VJ and give out surveys. Thursday no school (cos of IPW assessments) and Friday my IPW presentation proper.

It was wonderful going to RGS again, looking at all the nerdy geeky girls, + the act cool types. Was really hot. I played table tennis till I wuz hot and sweaty. Kept winning... until i decided it was time to go... rushed to the red house bus stop (named after a red private property no less) and took 7 to Orchard MRT, where I promptly rushed to the Popular exit, and took 190 to RGS. where i met Baos, thanked her, and asked her what she wanted in return( expressed poorly) I mean... I'm so indebted to her. Hate doing surveys, and she didn't even want anything in return for all that work. I'll think of something. Anyway, I was kinda hot and sweaty, and hungry... couldn't think straight. Forgive me.

Well.. when I went to orchard, who did I meet but a few friends~ amazing. Still they went somewhere else. and I met my classmate. We then wandered about, and I dropped off my slide film for development.

The photos I made were really good! I don't have to wait till the slides come back to know. I was like scoring beautiful shots, and the RJ wildlife was doing happy stuff in front of my camera. I saw 2 squirrels chasing each other over treetops, 3 snails, 1 singing crow, and numerous other plants in full bloom with flowers~. Amazing. Still, I have the vague idea I'm being exploited, cos the RJ bio dept is looking for pictures to promote bio, and this project thingy (take photos of 15 plants or animals around RJ and ghim moh market and classify them) is probably nothing more than getting students to do the dirty work. I'll charge them hundreds if they want the slides to my pictures. ah... men can dream.

Saw this really really pretty jap girl that looked like a model sitting at the busstop outside lucky plaza. Wanted to whip out my camera and make a portrait, but she might get really offended or something. Really beautiful.. and she was looking at me. Ahhh....

Met Geraldine at kino. she's joining us.

And saw this really really cute girl sunbathing at the swimming pool just. Rushed upstairs to get a zoom lens for some voyeurism but she stood up when i finally focused on her. Blahz. Anyway voyeurism's bad. Don't do it.

i dreamt that neek had a brother called neekwater.
thats actually outdated (few weeks), but i felt like saying it.
my friends brothers are hilarious.
neek is a classmate.
proly has somehting to do with newater...

ok. phew.
my friends were discussing that. the dangers of stats.

perhaps its just east coast.
i used to be able to get glimpses of red sky on the school bus. now i just sleep.
theres no red sky anyway.

friendship skies?
how. sentimental.
i just appreciate the pretty colours.

I remember when I was in Pri 1-3, I wuz always on the bus that sent me home from school, and there'd always be dramatic beautiful red orange skies, and I'd be sitting next to an open window, with the wind caressing my face, admiring the beautiful sunset.

And in the morning, when I took the bus to school, I'd see the transition of night into day. And there'd be a rainbow coloured sky, and white tuffy clouds. I remember vividly, that I called those skies friendship skies. And everytime I see those skies, in those colours, I'd always remember my friendships.

That's obviously not true. Otherwise you'd see people with bulging crotches whenever you walk past.

right! so the blog now works. :D
my olfactory sense is inadequate.

so wheres he live? havent figured that out.
sunrise? no matter. there aint a lot to see, as far as i know. just a vague lightening of the sky. its terrible.

juwel? isnt that judith?
whatever. hello.
aint a lot to say now, is there.

is it true that guys think about sex every six seconds?
huh? huh?

I hate~~!!!! Lomos!
I don't see the point of 4 small frames, that aren't sharp in the first place, in a flimsy little plastic camera that doesn't have a flash, that costs 80 bux. I can get something similar for 9 bux buying a disposable camera.

Besides... sometimes I just want large pictures... Imagine when you go on the train and see something beautiful, say a person, sunset, occurance, whatever, and being forced to take half of it, or four images of the same thing. I think its all just marketing.

Well... my sunrise trip failed this weekend. *whine!* was up till 3:30 last night, saw that 5am was so near! then I decided to take a little nap to grab more energy for later. I woke up, with the light shining into my eyes, and the first thing I said was "Shit". then I went back to sleep.

Haha... the amazing thing was that i set my radio to full blast at 4:30. someone promptly woke up, switched it off, and closed my bedroom door. I think. So I wasn't woken up. Oh well.

Wanted to buy wine just now at the supermart... probably gonna organize a nice wine and dine session at my house at night. I'll think about who to invite soon.

Anyway... dug out all the liquor in my father's collection... thinking of how to sample them all in a reasonably short amount of time. Sharing them with my mother... but still.. there's plenty. Blehz. My father doesn't drink very much... but he loves collecting beautiful bottles, and then keeping the nice bottles in a storeroom and forgetting about them. Yeah.

Anyway, I've just made some real rum and raisins. They'll be done tomorrow... thinking of bringing them to school... but teachers will surely notice the smell. Better not.

Anyway, how's everyone? Sounds abit quiet. Too quiet.

'want a lomo =(
only camera i have is a little one that's automatic everywhere for dummies (cos i got it when i was 10)

ooh anyway.. my ma went to see my teachers. Even though I got a B E O O, she was happy when she got back cos my teachers gave glowing reviews... just that one of them told my parents I was absent on thursday... and she said that I went to the library to study and watched two movies (oops!) haha... the truth's out! I ponned.

Mmmz geraldine! I'd like to state here that I'm not actually against happy people... Just that I haven't seen someone laugh so much in an LT. Kamal is good, I'd give him that... he looks handsome... trying to imagine him in a malay flick as the hero. haha.

Anyway it's settled. I'll be writing two chinese essays until 4, I'm supposed to wake my ma up, and we'll both go down to the beach to see the sunrise~ How romantic!... if only I had another. An Other. geddit. sighz... how does one find the others without watching The Others? :) I'm hopelessly corny.

Went to the asian civ museum 2... nice photog exihibition. Went there with the photog people... kinda felt left out somewhat. Don't really know them well. Can't wait till next year when I'll get juniors. We'll have barbecues and happy things~ and there'll be lotsa people in weird uniforms~ mmmz. anyway saw handwriting in the guestbook resembling huimin's... she was probably there... I'll ask her on monday.

well... long exposures are fun I suppose... still... they charge like $100 for a piece of cable with a switch at the end. Can you say money maker?

I'd love to have a cheapo smallish camera with a nice wide angle lens. Countless times I've seen a beautiful image, and the old SLR is just too huge and conspicuous to take it. I'd have grabbed so many more moments with something that doesn't attract attention.

*brightly* that was meant to deliberately mislead you!

i wish i had a camera that allowed me to do long exposure. i've always wanted to do one of the stars moving (not that you see enough of them on the mainland) so they streak. however, i'm blessed with a camera which won't even allow me to shut down the flash if i want to. gr.

how can you know where I live... :) unless you happen to live in the same area.

the streaks are from film on a rainy day. the car headlights reflected off the ground. long exposure.

well.... kimberly went to the last bastion of british-imperialism jc. so there.

now we know where you live. ahhahahahahahahaha.

mm. nice, kenneth. did you get the streaks from photoshop or on the film itself?

[online for a -brief- period of time. can't believe i'm actually doing this. bother chinese... it was my worst subject in the exams, unless you count amaths before moderation.]

friends? i dunno. sometimes it just *happens*. i'd tend to think that you can be better friends with people whom you know better, whom you've spent more time with. most people are pretty likeable underneath, despite whatever exteriors they portray. as to good friends--that depends on how much both of you are willing to open up to each other. and if it's a relatively deep exchange and if both sides see it as being a fair exchange, then there you go! but yes. i think that friends, and not just mere acquaintaces, are acquired over time. as you get to know each other, trust each other, make yourself vulnerable to each other.

i agree that scents are important!! haha. tend to notice people's smells. funny how some people can 'personalise' as scent such that when you smell it you think of that person. usually i have some form of a blocked nose though so can't smell very much. :) to gabriel, no, not all girls have a scent. only those who use scent-ish stuff. :) actually i read somewhere that each person has his/her own personal smell [like fingerprints]... not too sure about that. quite an interesting thought.

back to friendship, i agree with bun: "i've been in too many different places, been forced to shift too many times, broached trust, got up and left. it's hard to form relationships to last when you don't know if they'll be broken up in a few months." okay not -me-, but i get the gist. good friendships are very trusting ones. but i'm the sort who needs friendships. too bad about the pain--guess it comes with it; the price to pay. and it's not one i mind paying, as long as there's someone there. i like love!! :)

gtg now. be back after nov8.

well... thick skinned posting.
First photo posted... see if you like it. I like how the trees turned out though. Grainy photo enhanced with paintshop, so if that's not your thing, don't click! First Photo

Well, if we call, you can get "Good Vibrations". Hehe.

I'd go, but I've something on for the next 3 weekends. Damn. At least I'll get offs.

Geraldine always struck me as someone very interesting. She laughs a bit too much for my tastes. But of course... my tastes don't really matter do they? :) its more what yechao thinks that's important yeah?

Haha... gonna take pictures of the sunrise at ECP tonight/tomorrow. anybody reading this interested in meeting me? East Coast Park can be so lonely~~ message me at 94319989 as usual. Don't call... my phone's on silent mode.

Screwed Up Girl resents the handle somewhat :) But then, "I like being screwed up... It's nice leading such a screwed up life. It's very interesting and fun."

Ju~wel's going to a communist JC ;)

well well well... so who's nobody somewhere? shouldn't you introduce yourself? :) no idea here... but Juwel (spelt that way) looks familiar. I think I saw it on some RJ notice board. Could you be from there?

She typed ANTS!!! before erasing the whole message and restarting. And at that time, I knew I had won.

*beams!*

sighz... childishness.

hrm, does "screwed up girl" know that's her handle?

(to think people have nothing worth blogging more than the fact that there are people next to them blogging! but what am i saying, look at this entry..)

Well why keep your knees close when walking? Actually some guys sway too but it's less pronounced, and people with less powerful powers of observation than me might not notice :)

If someone smells nice, don't you want to smell more instead of look? What if they look lousy?

Do all girls have a scent? I think I only know one with one. Boys smell too, but they generally smell bad :) Though the smell of unwashed/undeodourised female bodies (ORA Jogathon 2002 held in RGS) is as bad, and plausibly worse, than that of unwashed male bodies.

I dislike Associate Flesh Parade too! They tend to be shrill. And superfluous.

Heard of Grendel. Revisionist writing! Sagas are fun. I think I tried reading Beowulf in Olde English before. I got to the fourth line, or something.

Something just occured to me. Did the person blogging in small letters and about ants write something like this?

"The guy next to me's blogging too... So, anyway, I'm feeling extremely itchy now. EXTREMELY.
Was sitting in the back row during econs tutorial when suddenly I realised there were HUNDREDS of ants crawling on the walls and the ground and that I was in peril of being eaten alive or that ants would suddenly start crawling and build a nest in my long long hair!!!
However much I shifted I still didn't feel good about it....Also the most freaky thing is that the ants disappeared the minute I shifted seat!!!! WAS IT REALLY MY HAIR?! "

I think you were sitting beside Screwed Up Girl ;)

PaRAdOx? You know Francis Lee Quanxing?

woah, this place's population sure has dropped since i was last here (and i wonder who kicked me out...?). hello again people, though i expect to be mostly dormant since i'm in the middle of o's again. i think i still remember who you people are. if not i can lump it until i re-learn. (though physics is more or less my priority right now, and speaking of physics, bye!)

i must confess that i despise cheerleaders. they and their bimbo ways, the short skirts, the shallow, mascaraed eyes, the shrill flimsy cheers that no one actually pays any attention to. the irony being that our cross country team, both girls' and boys', is probably the only team to win the conference champs this year. probably the only team that'll ever get double champs too. so prissy, they are. i don't think they like us. they've never been to a single one of our meets. IRONY! we're the only team that matches the football team in size, too. ick. talking about them makes me feel catty and flippy-wristed (an anne-ism for bimbotic.)

BLECH.

uh.. well. dancing? dancing to fast beats and loud music.. i'd prefer to be with girls. safer, you could say? you never know what guys are going to do when they get excited. not to diss you or anything, but kids over here can get -pretty- wild. slow dancing is a different subject though.. a bunch of girls slow dancing together doesn't look quite right. or guys, for that matter.

read Grendel by John Gardner. a take on beowulf from the monster's view.

exclaimation marks!!! ? and ANTS!! i'd like to eat chocolate covered ants one day. i'm just a little curious, b/c as far as i remember ants were salty, and chocolate with salt.. hm.

"citizens today know more people than ever before. But they form shallower relationships, not knowing everybody well, but only a select few, whom they hope will be their friends for life." gotta admit that's true for me, though not for most people i know. but then again, do i know them well enough to be able to comment like that? PaRAdOx. i know BEAUCOUP de gens. many people. that is to say i know a lot of people's names, and i can say hi to them and expect a greeting back. but people who i can really talk to, and who know me so well i could say anything and not surprise them.. i don't think i have any of those anymore. i've been in too many different places, been forced to shift too many times, broached trust, got up and left. it's hard to form relationships to last when you don't know if they'll be broken up in a few months. here's the attitude : i am a rock - simon and garfunkel - "i have no need of friendship. friendship causes pain, it's laughter and it's loving. i disdain."

whoa that was personal.

I think hip swaying is normal larh.. its just the way girls walk. if you try and keep your knees close together while walking your hips would sway too. Someone who smelt very nice sat behind me in the LT today. sighz, I couldn't help stealing a few more glances. I suppose I'm just a sensual sort of person... easily distracted. Scents are really important. Hope my future girlfriend will come with them.

Well all my school stuff is strewn all about my house. It's good to take photos, even though you'll forget about them. You'll dig em up one day. Not too many, though (compulsive photo taking disorder).

1842? You mean 1984? Or what.

dId tHe GiRl wRiTe lYk dIs? i hAtEz IrCz sPeAkZ.

I think I'm one down on Kenneth. I've never even heard the voice of one of you :)

I'm not sure that in the past, people had more deep relationships. So many shallow relationships beats few shallow relationships.

Just read a depressing book, about time, and how change is accelerated by technology. Thought about the book in quiet contemplation in the RJC library, and it struck me pretty hard, how everything I see now won't be around in 2004. That the things I write and do, known as homework, will just be filed up and kept in cold storage in some boxes lying around the house, that I'll never get the chance to keep everything I've done, that I'll be stuck without a past.

And that's a real fear. A fear that strikes me to the bones. A fear that one day we'll end up like the world in 1842(is that right? Can't remember my dates.), where things move so fast there isn't a past, nor even a present, but just a dim uncertain future, in a cold dark world.

And the book talks about friendships and life in the city, with numerous statistical examples. Future Shock, by Alvin (I think) Toffler. I suppose like all other books, its half fact, half fiction. But the feeling I get when I read the book, is that he's talking about the present. Its the now.

Someone's blogging next to me. I feel vaguely irritated.Cos she's writing in small letters and caps, and punctuating everything with exclaimation marks. Something about boybands or something. And ants.

Anyway.

How much do I know each of you here on the blog anyway? I've never seen you, only heard your voice, and somewhat remembered what you said. The book is right, when it says that citizens today know more people than ever before. But they form shallower relationships, not knowing everybody well, but only a select few, whom they hope will be their friends for life. But.... that almost always never happens, people whom stick together for life... unless you happen to be married to them. Its obvious, that I'm trying to compete with the girl next door for typing speed. Blahz. The inane things I do.. But I 'm tempted to keep typing and show my supremacy. Well.... yeah... she took a break. People do move around much more... with the recent recession, it seems that people are travelling more than ever in search for jobs. Emerging markets, China, Taiwan, Thailand? School overseas? Its a fact of life.. that when friends meet again after long periods of absence, there's a more than likely chance that they're no longer compatible. That an once happy face turns to an aloof face, an once warm greeting gets cold, and hardens to a singular nod of the head.

I want friends. Friends that know where i live, what I do, what I like. Friends that I can depend on when I need something done, when I have problems, when I jsut wanna party. How do you people make your friends? Share!

don't feel good... incessant dreams(nightmares!!!) of things study related... I'm hopelessly screwed up.

well... you'd notice when there's an extra weight on your hand and moving it makes you contact even more squishy flesh, through some unspeakably hard, and well textured material.

Blehz. No... I didn't really notice. Maybe we can get together and not notice :).

Anyway... think my life sucks... shan't go to school. Searches for a reason... no reason. Shan't go to school then... because I haven't thought of a reason to go not go to school.... so I shall go to school when I've thought of a reason to not go to school, and tell the teachers my reason for not going to school. Yes. That should work.

Uh... having crushes and worrying about your future aren't really nice things to have happen to you at the same time... too exposed and vulnerable all at one time. I think its just compensating for the bad feelings... At least you can love someone. But what if that someone doesn't love you back? Doubly bad feelings. sighz.

I should have taken arts. Seriously. Can feel a decline in my mental faculties. Its the dust. Its all grinding and grinding away in the mechanisms, and it's mucking up the lubricants and making the wheels turn funny. I write funny and think funny. Maybe because I've not been thinking, but regurgitating facts and formulae. JC sucks.

oops. -sheepish grin-
see i wouldnt notice such things.
-pokes- neither should you, for that matter! hah!

i think the energy gained would not balance the energy lost. aha.

blehz... you know... when girls rest their head on their hands, elbows on table, chest on table. Yeah that's what she did. Think she didn't notice.

If you don't go for lessons, you'll get white slips. Hmm, I never got a white slip :) Assiduously attended lessons... to get quotes!

Hmm I think my ABCD was rather mocking. But plenty of people who did worse than me got 4As and an A1 for GP in the end, so don't lose hope!

"One of the three"... musketeers?

Groping is very different from massage! Unless you're getting 'special' services at some of those massage parlours.

How do you place someone's chest on your mousing hand? Sounds like an anatomically impossible feat. Or maybe she was trying to rub against you! Either that or she's deformed (read: what most men consider well endowed)

What Women Want - you're talking about the woman who hoped he told her he was gay, so she wouldn't be so sad? Men want to know women's minds, that's one reason FHM's so popular. Women want to know men's minds, to a lesser extent. Most of it can be deduced anyway, as men are less fickle :)

Hmm Raffles Guys are precocious aren't they. I assume they were GEPs :) Mischievous lot, we are.

For an answer to the semen question... Well you'd have to engage in some serious bukkake to get your daily needs. And the man/men'd probably die given the strain. Not even taking into consideration the fact that he/they probably would not be able to produce it fast enough to provide for the, err, nutritional needs of the women.

How many calories are in the average male ejaculation? 16-Nov-1973 - "approximately 2 calories and .1 gram of protein"

Hey Kenneth does tell us a lot. More than most people would :)

Ugly Girl Fetish - I numbered 7 ugly girls in 1 class 1-7.

Well ask around to find out about the depredationsof AC boys ;)

"Jiggling" does not refer to the bouncing of hair! :0

Bah I never said reduction in length of sock = reduction in length of skirt. They could go something like x = 10y.

Girls make too many friendship bands. Then forget about them. Big waste of time, I think. Hmm, killer used to have a friendship band on her ankle. When I asked her, she said it was a friendship band "with herself".

good grief. youre really no Einstein.

my seniors? ah. yes. howd you know about that?
names? ;)
i wonder what else they'd eat -if- they were stranded in some inhospitable place etc etc. i'm sure theres better stuff to eat, plus its not filling.
hm. and what about the guy? what does he eat huh?
i wonder if anyones ever counted. the calories.

many people would give a -lot- to know what the oppopsite sex thinks.
as for me, i will just have to contain my curiosity.

bragging? whats there to brag about?

'Ugly Girl fetish"?!? O_o
ah well. to each his own.

"What's atypical is you lavish us with them :)"
he doesn't. :(

ACS boys? how did this come up? did i start it? i dont remember.
my mum has a fantastic opinion of ACS boys. somehow talking about them over dinner...
-worriedly- do they really "cheat on you and break your heart"?
how? all of 'em? most of 'em? or just guys in general?

grey. my rebound theory!!
i like grey too... hm. when i was buying new spikes the salesgirl tried to sell me some really flashy RED SHINY spikes.
nevermind.

my hair, hopefully, doesnt bounce when i run. i rather claim it flies out behind.
its just the really high ponytails lah. hips? i dunno. i think it happens when you dont shuffle, for most people. or with heels.

no; i dont think skirt length and socks are directly related. socks can only go so low, but skirts can go higher ie wider range. (aha!)
but of course there are those who want to show as much leg as possible, and those who have no idea whats happening in the immediate surroundings.
i think the socks are everywhere?

three girls? what three? a bit lost.
how does she not know when her chest is on your hand. and whats it doing so low in any case??

haha. making a friendship band!
>>>>[a y looking thing then]\\[upsidedown y]O etc.
purple red yellow-- it looks red indian! i'm so proud of myself. it looks a lot better than it sounds.

everyone else having HMT, while we chinese girls are stoning, watching Hokkien movies and doing this kind of thing (friendship bands). how lame.
perhaps during the two weeks of this i will generate enough to supply all my seniors.

I suppose groping is a form of massage. It probably feels good to be touched in a pleasant way. Its just that there are different ways to be touched, and different people have different levels of tolerance for touch.

Brings to mind What Women Want... Mel Gibson's (it was him rite?) perfect control of that hispanic woman by reading her mind, and i suppose it can be counterintuitive. I suppose that's why touch has to be taught.

I'm rather uncomfortable with it... sighz... still remember the time my japanese friend (female) while looking at the computer screen, accidentally ( I hope) placed her chest on my mousing hand while I was trying to show something, and didn't remove it. Blehz. I moved the mouse somewhere else. but not after an uncomfortable silence.

going out. Probably. Yay Yay.

anyway she remembered me, one of the three, and I got her HP number. Yays.

But still... inconsolable.

Sighz I got a B E O O... its sinking in. Kept thinking if moving to RJ was the right choice. I suppose if the system doesn't suit me, I should quit it and learn at my own pace. I'm seriously considering not coming for lectures or tutorials for a month and catching up in the library... But there's still the chinese demon to slay. Bleaghz.

I think it would be a fine thing indeed to talk to some of my more interesting juniors. I wonder what's afoot nowadays in the school founded in 1823 :) Anyone to let me prey on? Precocious young minds to interact with and help shape?

Screwed Up Girl was supposed to meet me this afternoon, but she was busy so I ended up being a voyeur at McDonalds Ghim Moh, all without treading onto the premises of my Alma Mater. I think I will try to equal Mr Downhere in my observations for once, so here goes.

My previous RJ vs AC observations still hold true, mostly. Nothing is new, but for the explosion of Hot Socks in the former, till the problem is on par with ACJC, conceivably worse. The AC guys I saw today also looked a touch more guai than before. Doing inane things like this gives me a comforting sense of deja vu :)

RJ students' choice of footwear seems to be rather dismal now. The shoes I saw were mainly in shades of grey, and I saw no shoes with flourescent colours. I guess the sportsmen finally realised that the luminous colours didn't make them run faster.

I'm told the new Vice-Principal is very strict, and it kinda shows - I saw but one person with dyed hair, and she had the A03 look, so the hair's a given.

I think I should start counting, some time soon, the number of Malay women I see who DON'T wear tudungs. I wonder if it will be more or less than the number of ACJC girls who don't wear Hot Socks.

I find the swaying of hips very irritating. It looks as if there was something loose, that a joint was broken, and it is irritatingly hypnotic in its effect often. Is it done on purpose? Or can most females not help it? And jiggling is very funny, especially when the hair bounces along (like when running). Perhaps that is why I was so amused by Jiggle last time :)

Cursory glances would seem to suggest that skirt length and socks length are directly related. And, depressingly, I saw no one NOT in the purple uniform made with alien fabric.

And some Quotes for you all:

I like Secondary School girls lor

Pakistan Disease (Parkinsons)

"I don't think its smitten or anything... you know, after reading a thick tome on the finer points of ballet... its perfectly natural to look up, and contemplate what you've just read." - Err. So after interacting with girls, you wonder about them?

Ahh, the perils of single sex education!

Lianz are ugly! I hate lians. Most people on the street look either Beng or Lian. Very sad, that is. No matter, I still have my Ugly Girl fetish to tide me over.

"I'm a typical guy with weird fantasies" - You're a typical guy with typical fantasies, I guess. What's atypical is you lavish us with them :) Yeh!

Frankness is good. Tis rare to find openness these days. Perhaps that is why Yinkae is so popular, for she expounds on length about taboo subjects.

Sex may be a small topic, but it occupies a pedestal of disproportionate importance for most.

ACS boys may be cute, charming and suave but they'll cheat on you and break your heart!

"we can, but it does take some effort and much seriousness." - Well males can with some effort and much seriousness too. I don't say "we" because I'm weird :)

I don't really follow the logic of the time thing. Does differentiation have something to do with it?

well.. I suppose guys can't talk about sex without bragging.

hmmz thinking about girls and sex... When I was sec 3 ..... some rgs girls asked (your seniors!!!) if they were stuck with a guy in some inhospitable place awaiting rescue, how much calories are there in semen. The teacher reportedly turned red and said, you don't wanna do that. Or something to that effect.

hmmz my weird fantasies shall remain mine... till someone convinces me otherwise. If this blog is representative of my thoughts its probably rather grey. I'd like it to be pristine white. thanks. Its really rather bad, and I tend to offend people when I go anywhere near the topic. I'm rather frank... I'm afraid.

its interesting because the when the change in time is small, the change in the object is small. but when the change in time is large, the change in objects are exponentially greater. I think.

Oh my... it seems to describe alot... about the world we live in. See. at the beginning of time, time being a small value, the progression of time (change in time) has to be a large value to cause a large change in object. This probably means that at the start of time, changes to objects occured very slowly.

As time increased, to say 1, as opposed to being very near zero, the greater the change in time, the correspondingly greater change in the object. At such a point, time and change has a linear relationship. one bit of time causes one bit of change.

Then as time increases to the 1000s, a small change in time, causes a large change in the object. a one second shift may cause a thousand parts of change in the object. Thus, from the object's point of view, time speeds up.

yay!

sorry. to continue:

do you have siblings?

kenneth is gory.
lian"z" are not pretty.

ideas? how about your weird fantasies then?
"mislead the sec 3s hanging around the place."
hey. it is your sacred duty to whisk the blindfold (or whats left) from our eyes.
hah.

soundproof rooms.
still perfectly capable of talking to myself in them. not much difference from anywhere else, in that respect.

as for your time musings and physics formulas... i was never one for that. the physics. the formulas.
'time x change in time = change in object' sounds weird but i cant say why. perhaps it makes sense, but certainly not to me.
perhaps its because time appears on both sides of the equation. GAH. forget it.

"fine, then... gabriel!!" - Huh?
as in, you try since kenneth won't.

oooh. got results back. :|
am proud to say that i got 86 for english, despite all the worrying and agonising over it. :D
(it wasnt the highest.)
i am effectively monolingual. we'll see about chinese tmr.
got a b3 for AMaths!!!! YAY!
thats fantastic for me.
the rest (so far) are all bs too, nothing of note. ahwell.

hm, it was quite funny, we did have a few people buaya/ buayeeing in pri school.
rgs and sji, and ri. true. i think acs also goes with the sji category. ri is in a class of its own.

"I postulate that girls can't talk about sex without giggling!" no! not true.
we can, but it does take some effort and much seriousness.

I don't have adventures. I'm remarkably unadventurous.

I don't think its smitten or anything... you know, after reading a thick tome on the finer points of ballet... its perfectly natural to look up, and contemplate what you've just read.

I sound a little lower than middle in english.. and a little middle in chinese.

Through experience.. alot of people like others to respect their personal spaces. Its only poor lonely souls like me that don't mind. Though I'd eat anyone that tried to grope me, with a satay stick. Slice off teensy bits of flesh and roast over the fire.

Well if you want to explore anything, you've gotta ask permission. Whether implicit or explicit. But i think in the eyes of the law it better be explicit. Ask for the right to trespass. Don't leave anything behind. Its bad manners.

Lianz~ = pretty things~

I don't grope. Fullstop. I'm a typical guy with weird fantasies, and doesn't do anything about them. Blahz... won't say more.. otherwise I'll spoil the wonderful pristine image of this blog. And i'll talk about a lot of other things. And I'll mislead the sec 3s hanging around the place.

Sex is fine as a topic of discussion... but its a really small topic~ at least to me. I don't know.. what is there to talk about? Baos, any ideas?

I think Downhere's remarkably forthright in relating his prurient thoughts, so we should shower him with due recognition :)

Okay, now it's back to finding out more about his adventures! Yay.

"never miss a chance to explore the female anatomy.", "saw all the pretty beings at City Hall MRT when walking back... oooohhhhh when will I own one." - Your words betray you, young one :) Wah, you want a sex slave?

Ooo it seems you have someone fawning over you :)

"fine, then... gabriel!!" - Huh?

I find squeaky voices irritating :) As I do bass ones.

English is good. Chinese is bad. See how eloquent I have become :)

Point to note: The "Chinese" most of Singapore speaks, isn't. The pidgin bastardised tongue that passes for Mandarin in much of Singapore really irks me, much more so than proper Mandarin. The grammar is wrong and all words above Primary 4 difficulty level are not used and English is substituted for them instead, so that you have sentences like "Wo3 yao4 take responsibility" when the correct sentence would be "Wo3 yao4 fu4 ze2 ren4". So much for a populace that's effectively bilingual. I, at least, can say that I am effectively monolingual. Most of Singapore is effectively "non-lingual", for lack of a better word. My damning indictment might sound harsh, but I insist it is true.

There are many types of loneliness. I guess I am lonely, in many ways, but there are people who are lonely, yet are fulfilled.

Soundproof room with a bar? I think you can find some in Geylang and Desker Road :D

Oh no... More platitudes about time. At least they aren't of the sort favoured by Chinese writers, about how time is precious and we shouldn't waste it.

"lantern festivals, mooncake festivals, and camps between GEP schools" - Ahh, the tragedy of being Supp Gep. Anyhow in Primary School people don't buaya. Much. The new generation might be different though.

RGS and SJI pple interact a lot cos RGS girls don't like RI guys. "Bad social skills". :)

I think many people like to be groped secretly :) Kinky.

I think guys can engage in reasoned discussions about sex, though the hormones do cause problems. I postulate that girls can't talk about sex without giggling! Hah!

It's paedophile.

"never miss a chance to explore the female anatomy. "
O_o and you -don't- grope?

sat next to you and gazed at your face? that strikes me as quite an awkward position. she sounds really taken by you. dotdot.

wot pretty beings??

no, it neednt be about sex. just... a bit of it.
fine, then... gabriel!!

too high and too low is irritating. too sharp aint nice either.
speak chinese a lot!! i woulnd touch that with a bargepole. my chinese can sound professional and fluent and stuff, but if you listen to what i'm actually saying, its just crap. in primary6 my tuition centre made me do this p2 cdrom, the one tied in with the moe syllabus. i played a little boy (!), but i only realised quite a while into the thing. by which time i think i'd done a little too much whining, it really sounded obviously -girl-.

i like english. i like the way i speak english. not too clipped, not too cheena. :D getting rather ego here.

to be con't...

Forgive and forget.

Well.. if you know any you could introduce them to me... never miss a chance to explore the female anatomy.

Well today while going to the Esplanade.. met a VJ friend Jeannie! and she chatted with me for a while.. really happy and funny person. Some girl who was at the dance section sat infront of me, then later sat next to me and gazed at my face. Well made up girl... Ballet dancer I guess... judging by her books. But I'm not a tap dancer by any stretch of the imagination, judging from my books.

Sighz... saw all the pretty beings at City Hall MRT when walking back... oooohhhhh when will I own one. Or at least... enter into a partnership and have a MoU to share one.

Well.. its not sex. You mean you want this blog to be about sex? Hey hey... its a family blog! Family entertainment only. Anyway I haven't tried so I shan't comment.

Well... I'm not sure about voices... find some sorts irritating. Take your chances. My chinese sounds good though... so if I really like someone... I tend to speak chinese alot. English wise, I'm still finding a position between absolute clarity (sounding angmoh) and singlish.. blending with the heartlanders. And I'm a person that's just there... just neither here nor there... trying very hard not to be descriminatory in anyway.

Someone said loneliness is a catalyst for change. That nothing drives the human psyche as much as loneliness. That being lonely is like the end of life. Gabriel? Are you lonely?

Had an interesting discussion with my uncle(who happens to be a sound technician) about soundproofing rooms. Told him about my wish to have a nice soundproofed room, with a bed, a cinema system, a fridge with beer and assorted drinks. And he told me all about the four foot thick walls, the well designed lines for the wires so they don't conduct noise, and double glazed windows and double doors... taking care with the doorknobs so they don't conduct noise. All interesting. And he said that it would probably be a horrible room to sleep in anyway. Cos all the sounds get absorbed by the thick rubber walls. You can't hear yourself speak. There's no echo. And if you enclose yourself in it, you'll probably go mad.

Would that be loneliness? Being not able to acknowledge your own presence by talking to yourself?

Time. I don't think I consider it enough. Is there ever a need to consider the effects of time? Rhythm, music, time dependent aren't they. Just like the blinking of this cursor. Blink. Blink. Blink. Blink. Things change. That's a fact. Does time change because the things change? If things always stay the same there wouldn't be a need for time. Time wouldn't exist. So time... is like the rate of change of things. Time equals change in thing(whatever transformation) divided by change in time. So... time x change in time = change in object.

yeah. and the newater was green. the bottle, i mean. but it tasted awful anyway.
i don't -have- a * phone! that was kels. bah.

"GEP has all those lantern festivals, mooncake festivals, and camps between GEP schools not~ only because of some educational reason... But to ensure that friendships, and hopefully romance is nurtured between GEP students, and preservation of these genes ensured"... LOL!!! but they only did that in pri sch, such a pity. in any case they dont really need to interfere for friendships to form naturally, but its true that MORE CAMPS would speed up the process tremendously. they should try a little harder!!! 0:)
practically all my friends' guy friends are all gep. what does that say.
but i dont think the mother-genes is true-- i've got almost all my brain-genes and character-genes from my pa, not sure what came from my mum exactly... height? my pa is 161, my mum is abt my height-- 166. oh and my blood group follows my mum. (she was inordinately pleased at that).

yeah! i always found it weird that the rgs and sji psls interacted more than ri and rgs etcetc... hm!
perhaps its just ri. on the other hand, perhaps its just rgs.

'I DON'T GROPE PEOPLE.' rotfl. but i'm sure -some- girls do like it.

and the gauntlet. (oops) eventually, eventually.........

i throw down a challenge as well. it was commented in my class' "typically feminine" discussion that guys couldn't talk about sex without seeming/ being perverted. we have covered areas -close- to there but not -quite- there, so why don't y'all go a step further and try that. prove it, or disprove it. that'll be interesting.

0:) i feel angelic. not really. bwahahaha...

posting a good deal...

aack. busier and busier.

hey kel, it was your fault!!!! I was conducting a decent engaging conversation with my senior when kenneth unwittingly interrupted. and it -wasnt- his fault, darlin'.

sorry kenneth. i cant remember if i said sorry then. well i'm saying sorry now.
that (the call) was weird.

i have a -nice- voice. :D
in south africa i called the wrong hotel room once (the one i needed to call had moved).
on the second wrong call the guy (he sounded old) on the other end said i had a nice voice. flattered, but at that point he seemed like a paediophile. (good grief how do you spell that)

something like kenneth's ego-boosters, hm.
i like my voice. it changes often-- if my looks don't reflect my mood, my voice certainly does.
it does drawl sometimes, but then i was feeling decently alert so it wasnt drawly. it varies quite a few octaves in the course of a day!

anyway. i -like- my voice. :D
your (kenneth's) voice doesnt sound very... distinctive.
but then, its not irritating either. so be happy. :)

perhaps i'm lonely. sometimes i'm lonely.
i talk to myself a good deal. scary.
perhaps i'm used to being lonely and don't know it.
but i feel it quite painfully when i'm deprived from school for too long, and if i dont want to go overseas to study it will be because i want my friends.
so perhaps i am lonely.

kels voice is -very- distinctive.

I feel very sian. I think my life has steadily lost meaning.

Any suggestions for bringing meaning into life? :)

The neglected component. Time.

Shall post more about it after considering. Really important for alot of decisions we make.

Okay. Gratuitous body contact then :)

I just emerged from editing an atrociously written report for a NUS friend.

Sample:
"The Theatre
Located at the top of the building, the exterior part of the building is enclosed with glass. When a visitor stands at the top floor and in the theatre, he or she can experience the sensation of �This is the theatre, this is the world�. Vice versa, all the visitors on the ground floor can expect a different kind of sensation when looking up to the theatre; they will be able to feel: �That is the theatre, the world is up there.�
this thingy is like an extension at the top of the building.. think the changi airport control tower. but in glass."

I found it funny when I was given two paragraphs. After 2000 words of that crap, I am laughing because I am past the level of pissed-off-ness and am drooling uncontrollably. I am about to run around screaming.

I DON'T GROPE PEOPLE.

Well... i think the reason is because they probably don't make ice with newater... so the newater tastes better with the addition of some normal water.

Of course, the reason they ice it is because people can't taste as well when they drink something cold.

Screwed Up Girl's going for that too!

Haha isn't groping them while carrying them fun? I wonder how you manage to do all this. Must be the residual VJ charisma.

A certain fantasy writer who shall remain unnamed (let it just be said that all his books are the same, and he's smug in the extreme and irritating to boot) postulated that babies are born with a fragrance, but boys lose it as they grow older. Though my olfactory senses are not sufficiently developed (girls smell better, I read) and I haven't gotten close enough to too many people to experiment, I think that this is true... for some girls, anyway.

Iced Newater tastes similar to Iced Tap Water. Maybe that's why it was supplied tepid. Or maybe they had leftovers from NDP ;) Tepid Newater tastes... clean. Slightly sweet, but that may be psychological.

"I think its a problem when firstly... no one offers to dance with you..." - Is someone complaining about his partner? :)

Sylvia Soh was my teacher in Sec 1! She has awfully strong perfume. And doesn't like students getting too close. Anyhow Raffles Guys don't like getting pawed and ogled at by RI Guys, so I suppose that explains why there are few inter-Rafflesian school activities :)

Well so men like dumb women. Bah. How about the cynical guys?

Well... I have some Government Internship Programme to write an essay for... will infiltrate the govt if I get selected. : ) Behind enemy lines!!!

I don't get to keep carrying girls... they aren't very nice to carry around anyway... though they do smell nice sometimes.

Hmmz... well so that's your phone number? I think I'll rename it... Named it Baos. Oh well.

Newater was probably supplied because it was free. VJ had Iced Milo from a Milo truck last year.... I guess it depends on what the alummni do. RJ has ministers so they're probably falling over their feet to provide free water. ACS can probably afford free Pepsi or Coke or something... VJ and HCJ have Milo trucks... infact... the VJ milo truck is kinda fact of life. Almost every school function outdoors has a milo truck. And the Newater wasn't Iced.

Me and my friends thought it tasted sweet. They were comparing the taste to distilled water (Vic). And its probably the same thing. Looking at the label one sees 0 of everything except sodium... Still I laughed rather hard when I noticed the "Made in Singapore" label.

I think its a problem when firstly... no one offers to dance with you. Secondly... when you finally get paired up by the SDU(read councillors) you keep sulking and gazing longingly at your friend who is dancing next to you. And totally ignoring the person you've just been paired up with. And then...can you beat it... halfway through the dance you ditch your partner and just dance with your friend instead. I think that's why we need things like the graduate mothers' scheme. I suppose if you really need such a programme to find economic reasons to get married, the marriage wouldn't be happy anyway.

Anyway a revelation today. Our teacher... who happens to be trained to teach GEPs says that in all the books on intelligence that he has read, the genes for intelligence comes from the mothers... and that the graduate mothers' scheme was set up by Lee Kuan Yew to prevent the decline in intelligence of Singaporeans. Supposedly, said Sylvia Soh (geog teacher in sec 1-3) the GEP has all those lantern festivals, mooncake festivals, and camps between GEP schools not~ only because of some educational reason... But to ensure that friendships, and hopefully romance is nurtured between GEP students, and preservation of these genes ensured.

I don't think its been very successful... sure there are some GEPs that I can really talk to and like. But really... the more I see of them the less I wanna see of them (GEP girls in my batch). It has to do with the package I guess. To me, and I believe most Singaporean men, intelligence is not an overriding factor in our decision for a girlfriend? Intelligence breeds cynicism and cynicism brings about maladjusted unhappy teenagers that complain about everything under the sun all the time.. I've never seen such unhappiness on such a large scale elsewhere outside RGS. I mean... what are the chances that an angsty blog is written by an RGS student current or otherwise(okay okay... I'm definitely overgeneralizing. Sorry!)

Anyway.. have a nice weekend.

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