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Thursday, February 28, 2008

Sigh

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh.

Sigh sigh sigh sigh.

Sigh sigh sigh sigh.

Sigh.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Poem

The day seems too long for words.
Sighs punctuate the silence of a void,
the only sounds that tell me I'm still breathing.

The sun seems too distant.
I reach out, just to get burned,
the pain reminds me that I'm still alive.

Do we laugh or cry?
Our conflicted existence portends an afterlife
that we have no idea of.
I can do nothing
But sigh.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Love

I've met the love of my life, yet she'll never be mine.
What do I do?

Friday, February 15, 2008

Updates

Sleepless again tonight, so I thought i'd update my blog about the going ons in my life. I don't think I'm tired mentally or physically. It's just this eye strain thing that i have, maybe due to all the studying, that just makes my eyes really tired and lethargic. Mentally and physically, I'm fine.

I bought a new guitar recently from Maestro Guitars. It's a CD-1, solid spruce top, solid back, and laminated sides. It's pretty nice, and my first new guitar, apart from the crappy one i got a long time ago when i first started out. I don't think that one even qualifies as a guitar. I remember selling it for 70, and pretty happy I got rid of a piece of trash. This one's different, in that it's not really what I'm looking for, but it's the best sounding in the shop, besides a pretty good EJ-3, and it's got it's own personality and stuff. Helps that it's well constructed, but poorly finished. I got a pretty good bargain me thinks. The woods alone cost about 670 SGD from stewmac. So for the good worksmanship, but poor finishing, it's a pretty good deal. I don't look at my guitar much anyway. I just play it. Kinda wasted it looks pretty too. I found a few flaws on it, musically (wolf note) and like a finish lump. But they really paid attention to using as little finish as possible, to maximize the sound, so some flaws at this price range is okay.

What I really like about it is the construction. Every detail of the guitar contributes to it's sound. The good sound i used to select this guitar, is reflected in all the little features and details that were put into it's construction. And it's not by chance that it was built the way it is. Someone did think about it, did try to bring out a good sound. So yeah, I've got something I'm happy with. Something i can grow with, with a personality that's a little different, but good.

Oh i met a few more violinists. I think it's wonderful how violinists tend to seek out other violinists. And i think mostly it's because the instrument is so terribly frustrating to learn! There's just so much SCOPE for improvement. I'm now working on shifting and 2 and 3 octave scales. Played without a shoulder rest for a while, and i think the violin's so much easier to play and lighter without. Intonation is a lot less secure tho. It's more inspiring to play without, but what's the use of inspiration if you can't play in tune. Actually, most violinists can't play in tune. You just work on making it less noticeable.

Today's the last day of school for M2, and marks the start of a period of furious mugging. I hope i survive it. I think the topics this year are sufficiently interesting and relevant. I like the material, and I like the lecturers, so hopefully I'll pass.

I'm kinda sick of music tho. Not sick as in bored of it, but sick as in saturated. I'm analyzing the melody and chords as I'm listening to a song (any song). I break down sounds into fundamentals and harmonics, and hear the relative differences in decay. I've got a song to record tomorrow morning (that I really don't quite care about). And there are just so many sounds around me! The sound of traffic, the sound of the crickets, the sound of the bird nest outside my window, the sound of the fan, the sound of my laptop and the chips inside chirping. The sounds in my memory. I've been dreaming, and in my dreams, i remember the sounds and songs that I've heard a long long time ago. I wonder if we ever forget them. Sometimes I dream, and i hear things that i haven't heard in a long time. And I wonder if I'm hallucinating, or if those sounds are real.

I don't know if I'm real. Maybe i'm a sound.