Yourself?

A love letter to my girlfriend.

Dear Girlfriend (whoever you may be),
I'm writing this to you because I just had a very interesting conversation with a good friend of mine over MSN. I said, in a moment of epiphany, that her and her boyfriend were seperated by space (since they are many continents away), while my you and I are seperated by time.

How envious am I! In today's world, there are so many inventions to bridge space, so many tools they can use to keep their relationship alive, whereas you and I are neglected, by the very same innovators and inventors. If only I could place an order now for a tool that bridges time, and get you to collect it in your future. If only you could read this in the future and call my present, and tell me who you are so that I can meet you now! I know it's not possible, because if it were, we'd have met, and I wouldn't be writing this now.

I cannot know who you are (as we haven't yet met, or recognized our love for each other), and the only way we can communicate our private thoughts, are through public letters. There certainly must be a better way!

It has been a long time hasn't it, negatively speaking, since we first met? Those flirting glances, that sweet smile, those tingles in the heart as we danced our way to love. From the time we've met till now, so many wonderful moments have passed, so many instances when my heart skipped a beat, when my mind ceased to function, and the feral part of my soul raged and whined and whimpered. Love is visceral isn't it? Do you feel the same? Did you, or will you feel the same?

I guess it must be similar, for I will have chosen no other. You and me, we were destined from the very beginning to fall in love. The hands of fate will bring us together, just as the hands of time are keeping us apart. But I am striving now, against those immortal hands that have denied countless other couples in history. I am striving now, to make my love known to you, to reach you across all space and time. I am shouting across the void, to you. And I hope, at this moment in your life, you felt something in your heart. You may not know it now, not even when we first meet, or if we already met. But one day, I will bring you back to this time. I will bring you back to this moment, and show you when it all started, and tell you that I love you, just as I loved you so long ago.

Have we met before? In the recesses of the celluloid films in my cupboard, the prints in my albums, the digital bits of my photographs, did you lurk there? Just waiting, a silent reminder of how our paths crossed, not once, but time and time again. I just looked through the photog archives I maintain in my computer, and so many people in my photos which I took for RJ now have a name in my mind. Are you there? I ask as I look through them. Were you there? You must be asking as you look through yours.

It's strange how I already know you. Somehow in my heart, I'm already warmed by the certain knowledge that I'll meet you someday. Someone who is much wiser than me, someone who knows me better than I know myself, who can read me at a glance, who shares with me the silent language that only couples have. That wordless art that comes with time together, or great affinity and understanding. You know what I want when I'm too shy to say it. You know whether I like or dislike something when I think it, and the difference between what I say and how I say it. I know your tiny quirks, I can read your gazes. I will try to feel the depths of your emotions, even though I am cursed with the shallowest of pools. I will be there with you, when the world is too much to bear. I will be there with you, when the world has become boring, and your keen eye has seen the future filled with dispair. When you need me, I will be there. I will dance with you, lead you, flirt with you, hold you and make you feel like the star on the dance floor.

My darling, I love you. Now and Forever. Through all time and space that seperates us.

Yours truly,
Your Future Boyfriend
Kenneth.

posted by Downhere. @ 12:58 am