Yourself?

-that- guy???

as for diaries and openness. most of what i want to say has been said by others.
will skip the long story which had just been deleted by the com. in short, i had a diary in p5 to convince an older me that young kids are not stupid. (it said so on the cover.) much has been ripped out.

i don't think i'm very open. i tend to be quite worried about reactions. so i'm only open with good friends, or people whom i know will sympathise/ empathise, or when i can't see them. blogs. msnning
and i used to be extremely worried about privacy, things getting around and the like. but not now. firstly i have nothing dangerous to hide. secondly i find that most people can be trusted, and its not all that hard to open up.
and about feeling the same way. granted, it does feel wonderful to have a sympathiser, but i too am very proud of my eccentricities and egocentrics (?) and do not appreciate them being undermined. although they are, whether or not i want it.
dunno! some things i love being unique in. unconventional. scorning the base desires of the rest of 'em. or something like.
but at the same time, sometimes, i don't enjoy being 'out'. not having what others have. not being what they are. ohwell. peer presure sets in. i'm still vaguely in denial. and my parents are an even worse case.
now that was an unusual spate of openness.

"i have my own views. i have my own taste." doesnt that strike you as ironic?

and no, i don't think its advisable for the whole world to know what youre thinking.
it would be good to have an on-off thinkwave switch. you can communicate stuff without saying it, when you want something to get across but dont fancy a mode of communication as brusque as speech. but i think it would eventually just turn into another kind of talking, ie, restricted. but in the meantime it could do wonders for the SDU. or otherwise.

at one point i was messing about with this really old cam from my auntie. it could take those whatchacallit double exposure? shots. tried this thing with flowers and floor. it was disgusting. about the only nice pics (i think) from that lot were two close-ups of road arrows. quite cool. i took one with a blurry window (i think it was), with three green and yellow matchboxy things lined up in front of it. i couldn't for the life of me recall what it was. and it was too blur for identification. still a great mystery. the rest were all dreadful failures... but identifiable, at least. hmhm.
and yeah! show us the pics. :D

posted by inventing @ 11:19 pm